He told us that preliminary test results indicated that Barb had Leukemia. She would have to check into the hospital the following day for more extensive tests to determine the type of Leukemia and the best treatment.
It was the beginning of unimaginable stress for us over the next 8 months. We were able to stay positive and hopeful most of that time. However, as the various rounds of Chemo did not result in remission - preventing her from having the bone marrow transplant that she needed, we had the emotionally painful discussions about what we would do for the time that we had left together.
She was such a good person and lived such a good life. It still doesn't seem fair to me. Her supportive family, friends and her faith helped in this difficult journey.Frankly, I don't feel that I've made much progress dealing with the grief from losing her. I still just try to get through one day at a time.
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So hard to believe it is a year already when I didn't think I could stop crying from her call. I keep thinking it just can't be. She is in my heart forever. One day at a time, Darrell.........
ReplyDeleteDear Darrell~~I remember your first email on Mother's Day, I think. It still doesn't seem possible. She had such a gift for life and fun. I understand how you can say you haven't made much progress. It is truly a day at a time and that isn't easy. You remain in my prayers. xox Pam
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